I'm reading through the book of Numbers right now. Numbers 20:13 caught my eye this morning.
While I would not go so far to say that my personal life is difficult, I have had some difficulties along the way. My job (and soon to be lack thereof) being one of the larger ones.
As I read this, I am convicted that I have done a lot of grumbling along the way, sometimes to God, sometimes to others. It is one thing to be honest with God about our difficulties, it is quite another thing to grumble. I think that the difference is in the degree to which I allow God to be in control.
For example, most of my grumbling is a veiled attempt to give give God advice on how I should be treated. My pride would like my talent and effort to be recognized and praised. When they are not I perceive this as an injustice. Like the Sons of Thunder, I am then ready to call down fire from Heaven on those who disregard me.
It is quite another thing to be honest with God about my circumstances, acknowledge that He is in control and ask for wisdom and grace to respond appropriately.
The difference is that one response stems from pride (I want to be in control) and the other stems from humility (I want God to be in control).
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